Wednesday, July 11, 2012

these days... (these months!)


Well hello! Hello hello hello!!!

Dear friends, how I have missed you! I sure did not think I would be away so long.
I sure did not think that at 4 months pregnant I would still so sick!!!

I am grateful to be having better days now. Although I'm still puking once in a while. But once a day is way better than 5 times a day.
Yes, see, I have to talk about yucky things like puke and stuff. Cause it has just been way too big of a part of my life these past few months. Sorry. Seriously, 5 times a day.

And what else have I been doing?
Very very close to nothing at all. I sat here, and I was sick.
I could not clean the house, cook meals, feed my family, tuck my children into bed at night... and these are all of course things which I have done every single day of  my life for the past nearly decade and a half...
Yes, it was very challenging!
I can't even really begin to get into it.
I am pretty impressed that we have survived!

I do feel that I have kept my spirits up pretty well. I mean sure, I do get a little emotional at times. And actually at this point, when I really thought I would be much better by now, I am getting a little frustrated.

But hopeful!
And of course happy!
Cause there is a baby you know!

Did I mention that I haven't been able to knit?
I could barely even read.
I listen to the birds, watch the trees out the window, daydream. Good thing I am good at daydreaming.

Did I mention that I like to keep my house very neat and tidy?
Do you think my house is very neat and tidy right now?

Oh, here are a bunch a random photos from the last few months. As you can see we even had two birthdays pass. You can also see that Jason is quite talented when it comes to baking birthday cakes!

Would you believe that most of the pictures that I discovered on the camera (cause most of them were not taken by me) were of cats (real ones) and horses (wooden ones). The girls have made themselves an entire herd of wooden horses! They are especially fond of Appaloosas and Paints, and all draft horses. They even used some of their own birthday money to buy more wood and saw blades.

Oh, did I mention how wonderful my husband is? The girls have been pretty great too of course. But oh my dear Jason. My hero. My prince. And thank goodness he can cook!

Thank goodness though that I have been finally able to return to the kitchen.
So grateful to be able to bake our bread!

I am also feeling such gratitude towards my dear friends who have kept me company through this joyous yet difficult time. Emails and phone calls, and sweet comments here, with such supportive words of love and kindness, blessings and wishes for health. And sympathy from those of you who have suffered the same kind of awfulness that cannot even begin to be described as "morning" sickness.

Dear Mel, you said you would come over and read to me!
Jules, that day we talked while I was lying so sick in bed, and you told me how good it was that I was so sick cause it meant such a good thing. And I said I know.
And Sara's weekly phone calls, always checking to see how I am doing.
And the blog reader/friend in Kansas who wished we lived closer so that she could help us get our garden planted! Oh, that was so sweet.

(Yeah, our garden is coming along a bit slow this year. But we will have to talk about that another time.)


It has taken  me about 4 days now to write this post. (Not that it is eloquent or anything like that...)

Yesterday we went to see our midwife. Dear sweet wonderful midwife, oh how we love her!
I am apparently not much good though at counting months or pregnancy time.
I am halfway through my pregnancy!!!

Well I guess I should be going now. But I promise to be back soon this time.

Hope you are all well, happy, and enjoying beautiful days with your loved ones.

With love,

(P.S.  Maybe we can talk about baby knitting next time...)



Sarah said...

So glad you're feeling better!

Mama Ash Grove said...

Dear, dear Renee, darn you you've got me all teared up over here! I am so happy for you that you're up and about a bit more, so happy about the baby! And so sad for how sick you've been- you are one strong mama. You will get through and have the most precious gift in your arms- a baby!!! And all the sickness will seem kind of far away. And I am thankful you have your Jason, your prince- and your girls who are so wonderful and I am sure have stayed as brave and strong as they can!
And now you've responded on my blog, and done a post yourself, and I feel like all is beginning to be normal again. I have missed you so much!!
We'll talk soon!! Love and HUGS Mel

Tonya Gunn said...

I was so excited to see your blog come up to the top of blog list!
I have been thinking of you so often and just imagining that little one growing inside - thinking though of how sick you must be feeling - and hoping you would not get too down.

nunu said...

congratulations on your pregnancy! oh how i know it feels to be so sick... glad you're out of that now and can enjoy what's to come and what's before you. beautiful pictures!

Mama Ash Grove said...

Oh I had to come back because I forgot to tell you how much I LOVE the girl's horses!! I have to show these to Ella.

the nest said...

Renee, firstly, congratulations! Secondly, I'm sorry to hear you have felt so sick; "this too shall pass" isn't enough encouragement sometimes, is it? I am glad that the sickness is abating now. Here's to relishing these beautiful summer days and preparing for your wee one! Cheers!

Christine said...

So nice to hear that you are doing a bit better! My- 5 times a day! I'm so sorry!! How exciting to think of baby knits = ) Hope that your sickness completely ends soon so can fully enjoy the rest of this precious time!

Unknown said...

Congratulations! (I can't remember whether I said that already in the comments of your last post).

I find things tend to go to pot quite a bit when I'm pregnant - but halfway through, not so long for you to go now :0)

Sarah-Our Island Home said...

Dear Renee,
I'm so glad that you are back and feeling better! I have been thinking about you often. I hope you continue to feel better and better and enjoy your summer! Once again I am so happy for you!

W-S Wanderings said...

Oh, Renee. I can only say that I HEAR YOU. Between all of my pregnancies, I spent over 30 months feeling just as you are. Unable to function. How I wished that "morning" sickness was NOT such a misnomer (in my case at any rate). But as you know, it was SO worth it. And it always made me think that compared to the pregnancy, labour would be a breeze.

Congratulations again, Renee. You are on another incredible journey!

Your girls' horses are AWESOME! I can't wait to get back into woodworking - my scroll saw will soon be operational again. Yay!

a little crafty nest said...

Sweet mama Renee...I now have a moment to pause and be Here. It is so wonderful to hear from you again...oh, how I've missed you! And you are beginning to get up and about is just about the best thing I could wish for you :) Like Melly said, all this will pass like a dream and you'll hardly remember much of it, especially when you are holding the little Sweet One. Goodness, I am excited for you four! I'm sending you lots of hugs and good mama energy ~ and a special little belly rub, too!
Much love, dear friend!

leaningapplemama said...

first of all...congratulations!! i love hearing about women and their pregnancies and babies. it really is such an amazing a sacred time!! i was really sick for each of my babes until about 20 weeks. sometimes just entering the kitchen made me puke. and many evenings i would choke down a couple of eggs in my bed away from all the other smells and sights. i even had to use the unused front door so as to avoid the kitchen. it is funny how well you can eat but the moment your body is pregnant all that goes out the window and even crackers seem like a chore!! i truly hope you are past all that now! it sounds as if you are. and thank goodness for wonderful husbands and amazing children. families are a beautiful thing! much love to you and yours. have fun with the last half of this pregnancy. xo, pennie

heather said...

you are amazing. i can't imagine going through that kind of pregnancy nausea again. david won't have it........ha. you cannot imagine his level of diligence in making sure we are protected these days. however, that has nothin to do with your amazingness. and this is your third time. right? i've done it three times. and i think it got harder? oh i am do proud of you. i know what you've just gone through. it usually took me to five and half months to feel good again. hardest work of a life time.

yes your girls are talented with their woodwork. wow!!!!! congratulations sweet lady. love.

Gail said...

Dear sweet Renee,
It is so good to see a post from you!!! I am so happy for you that the nausea is getting much better! I think of you daily....wishing I was nearer so I could help you. Blessings to you from Kansas! Gail

Ginny said...

Dear Renee, halfway!!! What a rough time you've had. Thank goodness you get such a good prize at the end!! Thinking of you. Love, Ginny

Sara said...

Renee, I'm so happy to see a new post from you and to hear that you're feeling a little bit better. The pictures are wonderful-- what bright and crafty girls you have! Please tell them that I love their wooden horses. :)

I'm looking forward to reading about the baby knitting. ;) Thinking of you, and hoping you feel stronger each day. xo

Lisa said...

Wahooooo! So good to see you again here. You are loved. Lessons in all of it. You know. Take good care.